my driving test

and the news is, i failed my first driving test.

i'm using a yucky green shade cos i feel yucky abt it.and i must admit, i was really a lousy driver! boohoohoo. it began in the circuit, and take note, whoever's gonna take a driving test soon, that when the tester slams the dashboard, BRAKE AS FAST AS U CAN. yep. and don't get a shock. cos i did and by the time i recovered from it i was too slow to stop. but i think he didn't give me demerit pts. then parking. shit. i thot parking was my best feat! but no leh. for vertical parking, i hit the kerb and after a second ALMOST successful try, i knocked down a pole when moving out. that's TEN points. u need 20 to fail. then it was on to the roads. i got a really easy route! but the instructor said i had poor judgement. take note: LOOK AT THE REARVIEW MIRROR EVERYTIME u brake, change lane (especially when u change lane) or turn or whatever. just look every 5-10 secs - in the words of the tester. and apparently u hafta switch to 2nd gear whenever u stop, which i NEVER knew abt cos my instructor always let me stop at 3rd gear. but whatever it is u could use this advice and play safe. hmm. all in all, i got bloody THIRTY-SIX points. btw, for those who hasn't learnt driving, pardon the technicalities used.

anyways, it sucked cos i realised how bad a driver i was. as in, it's just annoying cos, i don't expect myself to be a fantastic driver, but i JUST realised how much i sucked at it and it doesn't feel great. i wasn't really that nervous, i was like how i am during a normal lesson. and i used to think abt how i'd go for a spin around when i pass my test but now i don't feel like driving anymore. suddenly it's like driving is not my thing. and probably never was. i just went for it cos it seemed like the natural thing to do. aiya i dunno how to explain. i won't just give up like that lah of course. i WILL pass the next test!!

oh and the anticipation revolving around uni seems to be growing with all the camps and stuff coming on. and i just don't feel excited abt anything! i don't even feel excited abt going to med sch now! and when pple ask me if i'm excited abt going to med sch, i feel obliged to say "yeah" altho deep down i don't. i think i lie to myself alot but oh heck. and when i think abt orientation camps and meeting new people and mingling around, it feels so meaningless to me. maybe it's the effect of life away from sch. i don't feel rah-rah abt orientation and doing all these orientation and cheers and pretending (or not pretending) to be enthusiastic and stuff. i'm becoming anti-social! i really think so. heehee.

oh but i AM excited abt staying in hall! haha pardon the gloomy climate of this entry but this is something a little lighter. i'm thinking abt how to decorate my room and what kinda stuff to bring with me and what kinda food i wanna store in my refrigerator and stuff like that. haha! remember the lights we got in bkk? yay! it's like moving in to a new house!

as for work, i don't like working at the office anymore. it's taking so much of my time and i feel like i'm spending more time than necessary for this company. but i cant just quit like that. somehow i feel it won't be nice cos i'm working for my fren's mom who was kind enough to offer me the job. i even offerred to continue working part time when sch starts. haha what is wrong with me?! partly cos i'm desperate for money, but tuition will pay better. maybe if i manage to get a tutee then i'd quit that office job! but for now, it's relatively good money. :)

ok what else. oh yes. i wanna go cut hair and probably do some highlights if i feel like i can afford it. haha who wants to go with me??

alrightey i guess that's it! sorry again for complaining so much! have a fantastic weekend!

Posted by joce! at Friday, June 23, 2006